The site wont be updated, because its under construction. Im going to be turning the blog into something different all together. And In Return it should be easier to manage and easier for me to write about.

I have been a bit busy to update, so tomorrow i plan on doing that

Oohh
Oohh
Standing there by the broken tree,
Her hands were all twisted, she was pointing at me.
I was damned by the light coming out of her eyes.
She spoke with a voice that disrupted the sky.
She said ‘Walk on over yeah to the bit of shade,
I will wrap you in my arms and you’ll know you’ve been saved’
Let me sign, let me sign, can’t fight the devil so just let me sign.

I was out for a drink in a soho bar
The air was smoked out liked a cheap cigar
She rose out of her seat like a painted ghost
She was the woman that I wanted the most
As she reached for my arm I gave her my hand
I said ‘Lay me down easy let me understand’
Let me sign, let sign, can’t fight the devil so just let me sign.

As I walked through the door she was still in my head
As I entered the room she was laid there in bed
She reached out for me all twisted in black
I was on my way down, never coming back
let me sign, let me sign, can’t fight the devil so just let me sign.
let me sign, let me sign, can’t fight the devil so just let me sign.

Well i have to say i was surprised when i finished the New Moon book already from the trailers of the film i can tell its going to be very different. Just like the twilight movie was from its book.

For a start of there wasnt really a fight with the Voultari, even though they were expecting one, the abilities were explained more of the V Members.

And the actually story was a more focused fixed version on Bella and how she really did transform from a bud into a flower in the book. Edwards and Bellas longing for eachother and there love, still had problems a head of it, namely Jacob Black. He becomes the more than friend, the friend that has a love for Bella, whislt she is still suffering from Edward leaving her. The whole Edward made by that happening lead to Bellas deep depression, that is always repressed when shes around Jacob. As the book lingers onward you can tell the romance between the two growing, and it might of actually become something. If Alice Cullen didnt show up and start a rescue attempt for Edward (read the book find out why lol).

The story is written much better than the last and you really discover Bella as a person and someone you dont want to smack around for being so depressive lol. She dealt with it well, and the ending was a surprised. The universe is much more vivid now with the introduction of Werewolves and Victorias new plan.

I just cant wait to get my teeth stuck into Eclipse. One thing though, i will give the author her props its a great read. Even if im male and have piss taken out of me because im reading these books :/

I have even made a music video about the series which ill blog about later

Well i have a new layout for the site, i got plans to update more often, now im making Movie Videos again im going to post them soon too so i hope someone will watch them

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Reading – Twilight New Moon
Listening – I See You Leona Lewis
Watching – Mixture DVDs
Playing – Assassins Creed 2

Twilight, its a book series from Stephaine Meyer. This saga im currently reading and am really enjoying the books. Bella is a bit depressing to begin with but everything else builds a wealthy foundation of a universe that could exisit now. Its got the same following as Harry Potter. But the actual books are leant more towards the 16+ auidence.

I have to say i saw the film and thought the actors played great parts and reprisented the characters well, i hope though New Moon is more real to the book.

Whislt i was playing aion i was told by Kaworu that he was leaving and in return i obviously asked why? He said ask Tsukasa, Tsukasa and Kuroba had done something behind his back that he basically didnt like. And that in Tsukasa’s eyes he was keeping a promise that he made to Kuroba and in return went behind Kaworus back and did it. This infruaited Kaworu, and i can see why. When Kaworu wouldnt go into detail i thought fine, but he kept saying to me ‘Ask Tsukasa, I Want Him To Tell You Exactly What He Did’ . So i did and in the end it ended up Tsukasa not saying a word and Kaworu still steaming. When i asked Kaworu to tell me then since Tsukasa wasnt, he declined which he had every right to. But like i said to him ‘Then dont tell me you want me to know’. He said he did want me to know and the fact that Tsukasa wouldnt tell me directly as to what happened showed that ‘he isnt much of a Man’.

I meant to write this when it happened but had to think it through. What annoyed me the most was when Tsukasa said ‘It has nothing to do with you, you dont need to know.’ I thought of how Ironic and Two Faced that actually was, because after the arguement i had with Soli, or Momo or whatever she calls herself. He put himself in the part of ‘Whatever you tell me wont go anyway, i know alot of it since she told me anyway’ Now that arguement had nothing to do with him but that was still a course of action he took. It hasnt been just that time when Soli/Momo and Me were going out he was always saying something or sticking his nose in where it didnt belong. And on multiple occassion’s even Momo/Soli mentioned it as well to me. So isnt that hipercritcial?

It doesnt matter anyway, because i didnt want to know but Kaworu wanted me to know, which is a real strain. But like i said if you arent going to tell me, how can i help? And in return dont involve me in your Arguements, disagreements and such.

I cared about them all alot, but theres enough drama going on in my life all the time that i just cant cope with it, if you need or want my help then fine, tell me the full story, i can give advice looking on that instead of a blank page. And looking back at it, it was just stupid, we are old enough to deal with issues without turning it in to world war 3/4.

It made me angry though because to me it showed that although kaworu wanted me to know, it was more about attention between him and Tsukasa.

But fine there free to do as they wish.

I sent a text message to Tsukasa to ask if he was okay because people were worried (even kaworu) but obviously he is fine.

Thats all i have to say on the matter really.

Hey,

I might as well get into it. A few weeks ago i blocked someone who meant quite a bit to me, we were once together but that doesnt matter, the thing is she has changed in many ways, ways that i that Momo couldnt. But i was wrong, it started very stupidly because she wouldnt tell me a name of a guy she liked, she thought it would hurt me, but was wrong because if someone draws something isnt that worse? I also wanted to know the name because i wanted to know who made her happy, and was going to say something like i hope ’so and so, treats you well because you deserve it’. But it really ticked me off the way she was about the whole situation, it was like i was untrustworthy. And the only reason she told me was because she didnt want Tsukasa to say it to without me knowing. Which i respected her for, but then it went riddcouls when i didnt have a name, so she gave a nickname for him, and to me this nickname isnt the most flattering of names to get. And i wouldnt call it him because it sounded like i was bullying him by calling it.

But then a massive arguement happened, and alot of things were brought up about the fact i had listened to Kaworu about some of the things he said, and that Kuroba hated her so she would say things against. She played it so everyone was agaisnt her, i just asked her simply question he said, and obviously you cant question the new Momo.  Thing is with that she got very personal about them both then attacked me with it, saying things such as ‘I know he isnt going anywhere in life, and you listen to him’. And much more that i couldnt go into detail about because they might read or not. I thought it was wrong, and the fact she thought i would listen to them over her pissed me off, because i asked her outright on it, she thought it was the wrong thing to do apparently and that i believed them. If i believed them why would i question it to her?

For a start of Kuroba hates me completely and i dont really understand why, but if she wishes to be like that then i cant change that. But Kaworu i have known for quite alot of time about a few years now since 2004. So i do listen to him, but i also know when to question on what he says. Tsukasa on the other hand is completley different, i would believe him in some respects, but he doesnt feel that way the same. I even have prove of Momo saying she doesnt trust him completley, and that she thinks he still likes her, because he use to listen to Kaworu alot maybe thats where she gets the idea from. But the point on that matter with this matter she has shown many sides – faces if you were to me and i wonder if the one she showed him, isnt the true one.

She was his first love though they never dated, and he was heartbroken  when me and Momo started dating, and in honesty i dont understand why. She blocked on MSN, and blocked him for awhile, and the moment she unblocks him, which just happens to be the time i told her about a personal issue his family was going through, he immediatley jumps to her defense. I was going to say anything to him apart from the fact that i had blocked Momo, but she had already told him, and apparently ‘quite a bit actually’ that had happened in the arguement. This made me mad at them both more because i wanted to know exactly what and why she had said it to him because it was a personal thing between me and Momo. But he wouldnt tell me, showing his full trust in her again, and this really fucked me off because it had nothing to do with him what so ever, and i told him that, but he still wouldnt give. It didnt even concern him, but its not like she told him the fact she thinks everything she tells him gets reported back to kaworu.  But he still got involved. When she blocked him, she said once it was forever, and yet that failed. And on multiple times she has said many things about him, things that werent in his best light.  Some of the things Momo said to my mum about Tsukasa were degrading and in honesty could get him into alot of trouble if heard by the wrong people and taken the wrong way

Tsukasa really hurt me because through everything all the arguments we have and had, im still there for him, but its like a wall. Sometimes he mis-reads jokes, sometimes he gets too over emotional at things but thats the Tsukasa i know. When it comes to a Momo situation its so very different, he almost changes. I was told once that when i was gone he said that it felt like a few years ago, when it was just him, kaworu, momo. That hurt because he didnt say it to me, Momo did. So is there a side of him i don’t see too? And can he was made out to be quite cutting, conniving. Sometimes he has shown those sides to me, and it was new. But i always wonder now what they really do say. In there circle.

In mine and MoMo’s arguement an ex of mine was brought, she hurt me bad, and the things she said made images of certain events flash back. Horrible images.  When Momo came to my house in January 2009, i asked her not to hurt me as much as my EX did, but she did, she hurt me more. The one thing i will say is though i never brought up all the things she did with her ‘Kaworu’.

After i this, i was sorted to have a break to gone christmas, but after speaking to my parents, i felt they were right and that i was cutting myself off from the other people i know.  And i didnt deserve that and neither did i, i guess.

A thing upset too i guess its stupid, me and Tsukasa play a game called Aion, and we have Alts and whislt on our main characters we promised that on our alts we would level and party together, so when i logged back in to find he had already started i got a bit cross, not because he had, but because it was another promise broken by someone.

The day that Me and Momo argued she through alot in my face including her ‘illness that happens if someone goes on at her’. It wasnt the fact she said it, it was the fact she through an illness in my face when she has seen how bad mine could be, and that i would be one of those people. And i think that hurt also because of our past, and what we had planned. She also thought people had it in for her and i was like WTF.

I don’t really know what they think about me apart from Kuroba hates me lol. I fell like im the outsider on there little circle, and that the show me one side when there saying something different. Tsukasa has bought me some very nice gifts, but sometimes he does through them back in my face, i think its away of him trying to show his friendship or that he wants a well done. There great things but i really dont know what to think of it sometime, when Momo was here she even compared her stuff to his like it was a match between them. Goes back to the circle i guess.

Kaworu Kuroba Tsukasa Momo ———————————– The Outsider (Me)

I guess im going to get some flack, but thats all i can write, right now and my hands are killing me.

Anyways yay for Neniyle shes level 20 now.

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Playing: Aion Tower Of Eternity

Reading: Twilight

Watching: 3 – Britney Spears

Music: The Veronicas Hook me Up.

My Ranger Keilen has finally hit 19, and now can do some guild events.

Im currently working on my chanter Neniyle who has just hit 12 and has upgraded her armor to the healers set:

Neniyle

Hey,

Just a quick update to show off my characters in Aion Tower of Eternity.

My Main Character is Alestaos.

Alestaos:

Alestaos - Spiritmaster

Keilen:

Keilen - Ranger

Neniyle:

Neniyle - Chanter

Andante:

Andante - Sorceror

Ophanimon:

Ophanimon - Warrior (Glad)

Well the last character is a bit incomplete as shes during her final stages of evolution to a mighty gladiator, with a very cute face.

Im sorry about the bad quality of images i took them using the Java system on Aion Online.

They all belong to a good legion called Freedom heres there link: http://freedom.eu.mmoguildsites.com/

Anyways i cant fit much more into here today So tomorrow will be a full update of what my personal life has been like, and how someone has screwed it up and changed.

Take Care